staying in tonight

After much thought and seeing how this whole week shall unfold, i decided to take it easy and stay in tonight. I dont know why i felt so spent coming from this afternoon's recital, i should arrange for that appointment with my chiropractor, my back is starting to act up again. The class with the kids today was good and was a reaffirmation of the power of imagery and imagination.
...obessed with Skinner and hoping to save enough money to go to Seattle next year, i am currently guided by this idea of "releasing imagination" in order to realize the endless available possiblities that allow us to move. then its not such a big "artist" decision if you want to dance or be moved but instead its something a little under your control. not entirely vulnerable but just about not too much holding on to one own's body. i hope to have more time and resources to continue this research and create more "calculable" imagery that shall take us there. feeling very tired after too much happiness yesterday, i was afraid i wouldnt muster enough concentration to focus in on today's work but was glad to have overcome my human practical concerns.
...there is this one thing that has been playing in my head and today i just want to leave it be and not think about it anymore. i must admit that this exchange of meaningless flirtation has given me something new to look forward to sometimes during the day, but now i need to move on. let compound my inventory of idealized situations, naughty fantasies. naughty but safe as these stay within the controlled environment of my imagination. the mind is willing but the body is not, let's just leave it be...